The Inner Soul╭♥

 i know its been quite a long time i didnt update my journal...not that i didnt want to but im seriously very tired with school till 5 and stuff...then my connection pulak buat pasal...and another heart wrenching thing was that my long journal that i wrote juz got deleted.................. argh!!!!! i hate it!!! the computer suddenly turned off and the next thing i know my journal was not restored.....its irritating..................

there's been  lots of stuff that juz slipped by as time passes....first of all i got my own car and im allowed to drive anywhere...yahoooo!! thank you dad for trusting my driving...hahaha... i know i drive very "well"...not that bad for a new licensed driverla...but some people sound like im the worst driver....hello people im still a fresh leave...practice makes perfect... people...  ill drive like a F1 driver when im superb at it...ok???satisfied??? haha but for further info plz refer to liyuan...haha she knows my driving bez.....with thursday nite rempits and stuff hehe...

next......oh ya i feeelllll seriously touched by the video i watched in school...it was about the pain a mother has to go through to bring a new innocent life to the world.....without me noticing actually tears rolled down my cheeks but i was clever enoough to cover the situation... i didnt take it too personally and tried to make a joke so that people around me wont start crying too.....thank god they laughed...but im sure if they cried ill apparently find myself crying to...i dont know its juz my nature that i cannot see others crying.... but the worst was yet to come....
in the middle of watching the painfull moment that every woman have to go through i thought i heard sobbings.... i got a shock and turned... thought amirah who was sitting beside lee was crying..... but how wrong was i..... my bez buddy who i thought was a very brave and composed girl who usually dont show much of her emotions was crying soooo badly...... in 10 years of knowing her i havent seen her crying sooo super terribly.... i juz didnt know wat to do....how to console her??? oh god at that moment i seriously almost cried...tears welled up my eyes... i couldnt juz look away from her...i needed to console her...but the more i see her crying, the more i was chocked with emotions...... but for once ill thank that sleepy log amirah..... she made a joke which was actually not that funny...but i pretended that was the most funniest thing i have heard in my entire life.....i juz looked the other way...tried to calm myself and laugh at wateva jokes i hear..... oh god i cant juz burst into tears... i know if i do so ill influence most of my friends i guess...hahaha because all of them love me tooo much to get influenced... i stayed strong calming myself and at the same time comforting her..... lee its ok i think u juz let out alll the stressed up emotions in you out...i hope ull feel better and i wana make sure u can talk to us any time.... we will always be there to hear u whatever hard time  you  are going through.......

                                                        PLEASE CHEER UP BUDDY!!!!!

LIFE IS DEFINITELY TO SATISFY EVERYONE BUT AS ALL OF US KNOW  WE ARE NOT WONDER SUPER POWERED PEOPLE...WE TOO HAVE OUR OWN WEAKNESS.....EVERYONE HAS THEIR UPS AND DOWNS..... YOU SHOULD LEARN TO ACCEPT WHATEVER YOU HAVE IN LIFE...DONT  REGRET ONCE ITS FAR FAR AWAY FROM...SO HOLD ONTO IT AS LONG AS U CAN AND TRY TO APRRECIATE EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENS IN LIFE...EVERYTHING HAPPENS FOR A REASON BUDDY....THERE IS NO SUCH THING AS A PERFECT LIFE!!! SO COME LETS TRY TO FIT IN WITH WHATEVER WE HAVE AND ACCEPT ALL THE PAIN WE HAVE TO GO THROUGH IS A TEST A STEP NEARER TO GOD.....AMEN

its funny though when i think back bout all the crazy things i used to do in life either with my family or a bunch of crazy friends of

 mine.....they are juz the best seasoning that anyone could have....but at times its quite unpleasant when u get to know some

 important news from a third party instead of them.....and there goes another gossip..."why didnt ur frens tell u bout it...most of

 them were there...i thought they would have told u guys..."...next comes a huge mouth talk "does asma gals have conflict

 among them"??is this what we wana hear...how not well bonded we are together??of course not.... i know the fact is not true

 although at times there we cold moments and all but as time passes everyone tends to forget it and become close to each

 other again...i just dont get one thing...did all of u guys forgot our existence in that class??perhaps there is no one is to be

 blamed for but isnt it a responsibility of a friend to inform certain matters to each other...thats what friends are for rite???



hehe ckp was a good recent for us to have our tomyam today...it absolutely tasted good...and we spent time in popular

 looking at receipes from cooking books since we had nothing better to do...oh ya a "genius" person gave a "brilliant" idea to

 snap the wordings but guess wat it didnt work out...emmm what should we name such person liyuan???is there any other

 words besides stupidness can describe the person......hahaha yay i dapat balas balik.....



emmm the best part was i drove my crazy friend back home....i know ur life flashed past u...but u have to get use to it if u

 wana sit in my car...haha...she was practically holding the handles super tight as though she was in rollercoaster or

 something....hehe dont worry im a very decent driver i dont drive into other things easily...and sorry coz the ride was quite

 bumpy...as my dad said im used to petrol cars so when i drove trooper it was a huge change...so its not the driverz fault its


 the cars rite?....hehe i found something to back me up....and liyuan accept the reason and think rationally!!!

since the starting of the day i had an uneasy feeling about me passing in my jpj test....i knew that there was something bad as in realy bad is

 gona happen...and guess wat my predictions came true....how i wish it had not...but its juz all too late.... first of all the head instructor of jpj was

 there which rarely happens....why on earth he chose to come today i still dont understand??haha....emmm starting i did brilliantly...i passed

 my bukit n all but when i saw him at the parking pondok i got slightly tensed....ish i did park well but the fellow said kena garisan...it did

 touch by ony 1 inchla...why are u making such a big fuss of it??haiz juz bcoz the ketua is there doesnt mean u need to fail most of us to

 show that u are carrying out ur duty very dedicatedly....then the ketua started to talk to me as though i noe him very well like that...haha n i

 tried to get some sympathy from him but...it did not work..

i quote him"luka kalau kena sikit pun sakit juga kan"....emm actualy my answer to it will be tak...takkan sakit....

by saying so will he let me pass????duh..of course not so better to keep my mouth shut then cari nahas....

then jalan raya....the waitings itself drained half of my energy...i was driving ok till this one car infront of me did something stupid which i

 also followed.....m i not dumb or wat???haiz i did not noe a traffic light existed there!!ish im gona sue the driver of the car in front of me...if

 juz i could do so...haiz juz bcoz he got his licence he is luring me not to get one...he is juz jelaous that ill be a better driver then him....or

 perhaps he is trying to decrease the number of cars on the road.....oh wait what m i doing....kutuking him here....i dun even think he noes

 that he had made an innocent gal not to get her licence....argh...whatever....im not bothered bout it anymore....i cannot turn back the time to

 correct my mistakes....but nevermind...i still strongly believe that everything happens for a reason...and u will will get everything in ur life but

 only the time matters..whether u get it fast or slow...thats all...

These few days i have been thinking a lot bout my ambition?? since small i wanted to be a doctor....but as time passes by im seriously having second thoughts on that??im not sure whether its sum kind of hormone imbalance or wat......perhaps im becoming more and more matured and realy understanding wat i want in future...when i talked bout it to my best friend,she is having the same thoughts as me too....and both of us are planning to change our ambitions....im not sure whether it is the right choice or not...only god knows wat he has in store for us....
oh ya....alll the hardwork we went through is finally over!!today i finished my last paper,physics...it was kind of tough...its usual if sir ong sets the questions it is never easy...emm....to celebrate our joy..me liyuan n nish went out to pacific....it was so quiet and not many people were there...probably everyone is rushing their way through to tesco.....thats the newest thing in alor star rite now...oh ya talking bout tesco...on friday my dad finally let me drive there but of course he was beside me giving guidance wat to do...haha thinking bout it is kind of funny...
im driving without a licence??
wat will i do if suddenly a policeman  blocks my car??
ill be practically panting and sweating,,,,and at the same time ill exchange looks with my dad what to do next!!
well dad is very good at that kind of stuff and i definitely have some of his genes...hehehe:)...(thanx daddy)
oh ya tomoro i have a very packed schedule to enjoy my life...hehe goin jogging in the morning,then movies,then tesco,then badminton,and more movies!!!phewww im loving it!!!hahaa